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Runamuck 50K

Results: 5 hours, 39 minutes; 33 miles, 4800′ elevation gain; 39th out of 108th overall, 7th girl out of 36th

Last Saturday I woke up at 6am in a hotel room in Vermont, momentarily disoriented. I had a foggy notion that there was something important I had to do that day, but my waking mind could not grasp it… and then I remembered with some dread… “The Runamuck 50K!”

My last ultra had been the Vermont 100 in July 2015, and it was a doozy. In the months since, I have begun to question… why do ultramarathons? I’ve finished 20+ races marathon distance or more (including 100 miles!), so I’ve got nothing to prove. Been there, done that. I could remain in decent physical shape running shorter distances, and reduce the number of injurious niggles that I must tend to, plus spend more time with my family, and get more sleep, and refocus on graduate school, and possibly even take up other hobbies. Why ultra??

Still, I persist. I signed up for Runamuck 50K as a training run for other, more arduous ultras, plus it’s the third time I’d be running this race (making me one of the very few who has run it every year since its inception; the previous two years, it was called the Twin State 50 and attracted far less people). But I did feel some dread. Running 50K on the hills of Vermont is just hard.

Mr. P and Little Boy came with me. We made a weekend out of it, with Mr. P excited to get his own miles on the Vermont hills. They dropped me off at the start at 8am and I reluctantly let them leave, with instructions to pick me up in “five or six hours.” Compared to the first two years, with about 40-50 entrants, it was quite a large crowd.

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As I stood at the very casual starting line, surrounded by ultra jocks and ultra wannabes, I reminded myself that my goals for the race has little to do with speed, and all to do with the distance. I would not push until mile 25. I would preserve my quads and knees by taking it easy on the downhills.

By mile 4, I was reminded that I do ultras not because they are easy, but because they are hard (to paraphrase JFK). And to paraphrase some obscure ultra runner in the recent Barkley Marathons documentary… “Most people could benefit from having more pain in their lives.” Which sounds (at best) cavalier and (probably) horrible to people with actual, non-self-inflicted pain.

I seriously hate this picture but it’s the only one the course photographer captured of me. I’m the agonized looking lady with the light blue hydration pack and gray/black ensemble between the three runners in the foreground. I was still being cautious at this point.

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I plugged along. As usual, I passed people on the uphills, and they passed me on the downhills. Only to be re-passed by me on the uphills. I got serious uphill endurance. I passed people, but slowly.

Disaster struck at mile 15, right around that halfway milestone that should give a serious mental boost. I was leapfrogging with 3 excitable Quebecois as they scorched past me on the downhills and I plowed past them on the uphills. Coming off a long downhill, I came to an intersection and saw them hiking up a hill to the right side of the fork. Not even checking the course markings, I blindly followed them up the road.

About a mile later, we encountered runners coming the other way. Anguish all around: we took a wrong turn.

The bright side is the camaraderie. I started talking with two guys who I leap-frogged with the rest of the race. In ultras, the camaraderie is key.

The down side was, of course, two extra miles. Fortunately my energy was good, my quads were holding up… and hey. Bonus miles and elevation!

Yes, I was amazed my quads were in good shape! I knew the downhills were relentless and I wanted to preserve them, but then again, these quads have seen these hills before. I began pushing my pace at mile 26, then started to rip down the last miles of the course. I think I passed around 10 people, including my two “lost boys.” My endurance was tip top.

I finished in 5 hours, 39 minutes. I am sure if I hadn’t taken that unfortunate detour I could have done at least 5 hours, 20 minutes. Who knows? I blame myself for blindly following other runners. In any case, I am pleased with the race and my recovery; I think the road marathon training as well as my weight training has been hugely beneficial.

Mr. P and Little Boy also had a great weekend. Little Boy spent much time in our hotel’s racquetball court, and he ain’t half bad! Mr. P got two longish runs in, so everyone was happy.

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Give me the streets of Manhattan!

Give me such shows — give me the streets of Manhattan! — Walt Whitman, “Give me the Splendid, Silent Sun”

This weekend we headed to New York City so that Mr. P could test his road speed in the New York City Half Marathon. He originally entered in hopes of running a 1:28, which would allow him to bypass the lottery for the New York City Marathon in 2017. But just a few weeks ago, he gained entry to the 2016 NYC Marathon via the lottery, relieving him of the pressures of attaining a time that he was not entirely confident he could attain in order to run a marathon he will have already had done.

We cashed in some Hilton loyalty points to stay at the Doubletree in Times Square. It was mile 7 of the half marathon, but right at the starting line for the 1-mile kids race that Mr. P had signed Little Boy up for. It was also right across the street from M&M’s World, which is Little Boy’s new favorite place on Earth.

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While spectating, we caught a glimpse of American Molly Huddle battling it out with a Kenyan Joyce Chepkirui in the Elite women’s race. Apparently the battle came down to a controversial photo finish in which Huddle appeared to elbow Chepkirui. Funny enough, in my picture it looks like Chepkirui is making contact with Huddle.

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Many minutes later, Mr. P finally came into view. I was tracking his progress via an app and knew he was hovering right below his goal pace. He finished in 1:29:09, a teensy yet torturous bit under his goal.

I yelled and he waved. He hates this picture, but since the official race photos cost $29.95 for one, this one might have to do.

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Little Boy’s race was a bit unfair, as he was in the 7-10 year old boy’s division. I was shocked at how many kids had real track uniforms and running shoes. These kids were serious. I reminded Little Boy to go out slow and finish strong, and was very pleased that he did just that. He started in the back of the pack and worked his way up to finish firmly in the middle.

Running Strong near the finish

Running Strong near the finish

I was so proud of him. He paced himself perfectly and told me he didn’t walk at all. they gave all the kids heat wraps though it wasn’t that cold and they all walked around proudly with them.

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Another memorable part of our weekend was the view from our hotel room. Here are the runners making  their way through Times Square as the Green M&M lords over them.

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France, February 2016

We’ve been back for two weeks from our skiing vacation in France so I gotta get this post up, as it is annoying congestive.

Vacations should just blog themselves.

After taking two planes overnight from Boston, we arrived in Geneva in the midst of a small snow storm. There were some tense moments in our rental car as the highway turned treacherous; then, we’d pass into a stretch of rain and we’d relax. Then, snowy road. Then, rain. Then… snowy mountain road! We tried to ascend the unplowed uphills, then finally relented and attempted to attach chains to the tires (we got one out of two). That is when we learned a basic life wisdom: If you should ever need to attach chains to tires, the time not to learn is during a snowstorm on the side of a narrow, mountainous road with cars and trucks hurtling by you.

Arriving at our condo was big relief. We cranked up the space heaters and took a group nap.

The rest of the week was relatively uneventful. We skied, ate, drank, and spent time with Mr. P’s family. I ran a bit, and hiked, but mainly skied. No one got sick except for the 3-year old nephew. The week was over too soon.

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We resisted the urge to catnap this French kitty at a cafe in Montalban.

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XC skiing solo at Fountaine Froide.

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Le Mont Blanc in the clouds (he did not often grace us with an appearance)

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Running/hiking up to Plan Bois with Mr. P. It looks like his leg is hyper extended but that’s his jacket, both legs are on the ground.

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A man happy to be in his native land!

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Little Boy’s skiing class. He got his Super Yeti medal! Notice he is the smallest member of his class (with the possible exception of the kick-ass Frenchie girl on the far right, who also got her Super Yeti.)

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Little Boy with 2 of his English cousins at a chocolate chad/ vin chard brake. Hey, those are my sunglasses.

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Chocolate chaud, with the chair lift in view.

 

 

 

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2016 Hyannis Marathon

The blog-time continuum is about to get disrupted, as I have yet to finalize the post about last week’s (two weeks ago?) February vacation, where we did little more than ski, eat, and drink with Mr. P’s family for a solid week. But today was the Hyannis Marathon and I wanted to write about it while it was still fresh in my mind (and legs).

I had viewed Hyannis Marathon as a potential Boston Qualifying run. I would have needed to finish in 3:37 (about 3 minutes under the official qualifying time for women my age) to actually be able to register … and honestly, it was a crapshoot. Aside from 2 progressive long runs and some speedy intervals in my regular weekly miles, I didn’t do any specific road marathon training, and I even skipped runs so I could go XC/Alpine and otherwise frolic in the woods. My road half-marathon and 5K times indicate I have the fitness to run well under 3:37, but I fully admit to not putting in the proper training for a road marathon. I hoped my ultra-training base could carry me through.

And it almost did. I finished in 3:42… I was on pace (or below) for 18 of the 26 miles, and I fought an insanely gusty headwind for some of the course. Can’t complain about the weather otherwise, and my digestion/energy preserved. My legs simply got tired and sore and I couldn’t push through. I didn’t walk at all, but fell to a 9 minute mile pace in the eight miles, which was enough to sink me.

Pushing through Hyannis wind, some around mile 15

Pushing through Hyannis wind, somewhere around mile 15

I did finish 1st place Filly (filly=woman over 140 pounds). Ha. When I previously blogged about this race, I mentioned my disdain for the concept of a “Filly Division” and my intention to bypass it. However, my body is still clinging fiercely to its winter coat of fat, and when I weighed myself yesterday morning, I thought “Screw it. Filly it is.” So I changed my registration and winded up 1st Filly.

The Filly from Philly!

The Filly from Philly!

I had floated the idea to Mr. P back in France, on a ski lift. “Maybe I should switch to Filly?” Little Boy was intrigued by the word, and when explaining it to him I joked lightly about “It means I’m a big fat lady.”

Obviously a joke, but Little Boy seemed to remember my wording.

Confession: I have an unhealthy relationship with whipped cream. I call it “whipped crack.” I cannot be in the same house with whipped cream without repeatedly emptying the contents into a ramekin and licking it off a spoon. I have begged Mr P. (who likes an occasional dollop on his ice cream or fruit) to stop buying it… but in response to always finding the whipped cream gone, he just buys more. Two, three cans a week.

So after dinner one night, I was fixing myself a ramekin of whipped cream when Little Boy wondered into the kitchen. He probably heard the telltale noise of the cream being dispensed.

“Mommy?” he said. “Maybe the reason you’re a Filly is because you eat so much cream.”

Little Boy said it, of course, in the most helpful, supportive way ever. Like it as an intervention. And he’s probably totally right. I cracked up.

I am glad I tried another road marathon, but honestly, these things are not for me. I am hankering to get back into the woods for some slow and steady ultra training.

Big thanks to Mr. P and Little Boy for coming to Hyannis with me. We had a blast in a salt-water swimming pool, watching some good cable TV, ate some delicious sashimi, and had an overall nice weekend.

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The Trees’ Beautiful Burdens

Yesterday’s snow hung around, on the trees. It was a day-long storm that yielded perhaps 3-5 inches… with much of it clinging to the trees. Our front yard at sunset:

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Ten Minutes After the Snow Stopped…

Oh, it was gorgeous. It still is gorgeous, as the winds have not picked up and relieved the trees of their meteorological burden. This morning I headed to the Fells for a 2-hour long splurge of XC skiing. The conditions were incredibly slow due to the low-hanging trees that blocked the trail as well as the exposed rocks underneath (’cause all the snow was on the trees). Yet the sunrise that greeted me at Bellevue Pond at 6:45 am made my day complete.

Bellevue Pond, sunrise

Bellevue Pond, sunrise

During my XC ski, I finally managed to take a not-horrible trail selfie! Granted, I was not running and sweaty.

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Later this afternoon, I ventured out into the woods again with Mr. P and Little Boy. I was on my XC skis and they were romping and running around. We had a blast in the warm sunshine and beguilingly woods.

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This is winter. This is winter! Today, I remembered that I love winter, I love snow, and that last winter was just a freakish aberration that killed my enthusiasm for New England through the overabundance of snow and cold. Winter is good. Winter is fun. Winter is a time of loveliness and purity and contemplation.

 

 

 

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Jeb! and Bode

The stars aligned for a skiing weekend in New Hampshire. After completing our respective weekly long runs on Saturday morning (me with a killer 20-mile progressive run that would seem to indicate I am theoretically capable of qualifying for Boston at the Hyannis marathon in four weeks; Mr. P with an “easy” 12 miler), we left Saturday afternoon. We arrived at our hotel in time for a quick dip in the pool followed by dinner in Littleton, NH… which is of course a political epicenter these days. Evidenced by:

Jeb! Jeb! Jeb!

Jeb! Jeb! Jeb!

“What’s Jeb!?” Little Boys asked, inflecting the word with the enthusiasm or perhaps surprise required by the exclamation mark (as a dutiful second grader would).

Excellent question. What is Jeb!? Since it never occurred to Little Boy that it might be a person’s name (for such a strange name it is, and anyway where we come from people don’t advertise themselves in storefronts), I was tempted to tell him it was a type of soda, because looking at the signs, the first thing that came to my mind was soda!

After a nice relaxing night, we woke up Sunday morning, attacked the breakfast buffet, and then headed out to Cannon Mountain. With its steep, icy terrain, Cannon has a reputation as being an “expert” mountain. This could also be attributed to the skiing prowess I observed by people of all ages and genders throughout the course of the day. I’m a competent but slow skier, yet it’s pretty rare that I’m the slowest skier on the whole damn mountain.

For the White Mountains in January, it was a warm but cloudy 30 degrees. Little Boy had a blast. As usual, he complained and moaned about not wanting to go all the time until we got on the ski lift for the first run. Then it was (mostly) all smiles.

I think his eyes are closed but it doesn't matter

I think his eyes are closed but it doesn’t matter

I look like a giant

I look like a giant

Chillin' on the ski lift

Chillin’ on the ski lift

We skied for about four hours, with some lunch in between. By the last run, my quads were burning; the soft (manmade snow) plus the steep slopes made my first ski of the season quite a little workout.

Before hitting the highway back home, we stopped for gas and I bought a six-pack of Tuckerman’s, a local New Hampshire brewery, the Bode Miller edition (in honor of our day at Cannon Mountain, Bode Miller ‘s home mountain and the home mountain of scores of aspiring Bodes.)

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And then I ate everything

If I had a blog that was a strict “training log” blog, that would probably be a good name for it.

Today was one of those eating days. It was also the first substantial (2-3 inches) snow of the season. So the day started with a slow 5-mile recovery jog on Yaktrax on the streets. After having logged almost 30 miles this past weekend, this nothing run ignited a serious craving for calories. Yet since I planned to go XC-skiing in a few hours, I had to restrain myself to a 2-egg omelet with some ham and cheese.

I had the MLK Jr. holiday off and can tend to Little Boy; Mr. P agreed to go late to work (having worked most of the weekend) so I could enjoy an hour in the woods on the skinny skis. A few more inches of the fluffy white stuff would have greatly improved the conditions; in many sections, the rocks consistently scraped the bottom of my skis. But it was great to get outside.

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When I returned home at 9:30am, I peeked at the weather forecast and saw that arctic temperatures and frigid winds would kick up after noon. So I quickly whisked Little Boy to the local sledding hill before it would get unbearable. The timing was good. There was still snow on the hill and plus one of Little Boy’s friends showed up soon after, so they romped around for about 80 minutes. I should have taken a picture, but I was a little disgusted by how all the parents were standing at the bottom of the hill with their phones, yelling at their offspring to “Look up! Move your hood up! Smile!” as the children descended the hill.

By then it was 11:30. I was starving, but equally interested in taking a nice long hot Epson salt bath. Ahhhh.

And THEN I ate everything.

 

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Bring me my chariot of fire!

Despite all my nattering about running, the majority of my lifespan has been spent engaging in sedentary activities like reading, writing, eating Doritos for breakfast (a college habit), slaving over a computer in a cubicle, and smoking (the ultimate anti-running pastime). I began running over 14 years ago, because I had reached the clinical definition of overweight at 165 pounds. I immediately strived for “more distance” over “faster” because to run even 3 miles, at whatever pace, was an accomplishment .

The distances got longer and the weight disappeared. In 2011, I ran my first road marathon (Philadelphia). I finished in four hours and 18 minutes, with legs so sore I could barely walk back to the car. I was hobbled for a week after. But I achieved the distance, I didn’t give two sh*ts about my time, and I wanted more. Having also gotten into trail running around this time, I read about ultra races and my mind just marveled: Normal people like me, running for 50 miles or more!

So I trained and raced ultras, which requires running slow for long periods of time. In ultras, I race in the mid-pack. But I noticed something: when I race short distances on the road (5K, 10K) I am pretty fast, despite not doing speed work in my training. It turns out that my ultra training (heavy, slow mileage with lots of hills) also makes me fast. When I add in a few days of actual speed work, I get even faster.

The only other road marathon I ever did was Chicago in 2012. I finished even slower than Philly (4 hours, 20 minutes) but that’s because I ran the first 15 miles with my college housemate Tim, who is a “bucket list” kind of marathoner and wanted to maintain 11-minute miles. At mile 15 I took off (at his insistence) and ran a negative split. It was fantastic experience, mostly because Tim and I spent those 15 miles talking a lot about the new kid’s series he was in the process of creating, which turned out to be the wildly successful Odd Squad.

Anyway, my road marathon PR is 4:18. And that has to change. Given my road half marathon PR is 1:42, I know that I can do significantly under 4 hours… maybe even a Boston Qualifier (which is 3:40, though I would need to have a 3:37 for a legitimate chance at winning entry). So I signed up for the Hyannis Marathon at the end of February, which give me 7 weeks to do tempo runs on the bicycle path whilst pining for the woods.

When I signed up for Hyannis, I had to pick a division. Choices: “Open Women” or “Filly Women.” A “filly,” apparently, weighs 140 pounds or more (incidentally, most other races put the “filly” or “Athena” women at 150 pounds or more). As I mentioned last week, my winter weight is currently hovering right around 140 pounds at the moment. So I am categorically a female horse! (Incidentally the Clydesdale division, for men, starts at 190 pounds. Which seems a little more strict.)

It’s probably true that a 140 pound woman like myself cannot compete with the short, slim women who generally win road marathons. And looking at the times of women who won the Filly division in the past… I would have a legitimate shot at making the Filly podium.

If I HAD registered as such. I didn’t though. Mostly because I really hope to be several pounds under 140 by the time of the race, but also because I don’t believe my weight is a disadvantage. I will beat plenty of women who weigh less than me.

Allow me to allow you to take a mental gander at my legs: Thick, almost obscene calf muscles, with body-builder-like veins feeding through them. Rock-hard thighs and hips. A butt that defies the gravity tugging at this nearly 40-year old body. These muscles are not a disadvantage. In trail running, these are the physical rewards I reap.

What is a filly, anyway? A female horse, so young they do not allow her to race. Would I really demoralize myself to register in a race as such?

Bring me my bow of burning gold!
Bring me my arrows of desire!
Bring me my spear! O clouds, unfold!
Bring me my chariot of fire!

 

 

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Artists Don’t Live in Vacuums

Instead of taking the time to compose a thoughtful and more lengthy blog post (in the spirit of my resolution), I consciously choose to use those precious minutes of my day… to vacuum! Ha-ha — vacuum the floors of my condo! for no real pressing reason other than the hunching instinct that it would make me feel better than if I were to sit down and exercise my creativity.

What have I become?

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Crunchy Run thru Snow and Ice

In regards to yesterday’s ambiguous resolution to “blog more,” I should have set up a guideline: Try not to always write trite blog posts about running, buffeted by selfies taken in the woods. But, I didn’t offer any such caveat, so I can blog with wild abandon about today’s 11-mile trail run.

I had planned to leave the house at 7am but Little Boy was awake at 6:15am. I made him go to bed at 8:30pm last night because it was my turn to read the story and I was exhausted due to several nights of poor sleep this week. Mr. P was still sleeping and I have a hard time saying good-bye to Little Boy when he’s all by himself, so I didn’t actually get outside until 7:20am. It was 30 degrees. I had my lightweight Inov-8 backpack with some water, a pair of Yak Trax, and my phone. I felt good and ran easy on the sidewalks to the trailhead.

I entered the woods at Lone Tree Hill with the goal of capturing a course record on a particular Strava segment. This segment is about 1 mile, with 250 feet of elevation gain. I scoped out the women’s course record and felt that even with the ice and snow, I could still beat it. But I took a wrong turn up the hill and then lamented the hard effort for “nothing” (except for my personal betterment and fitness). When I got home and synced my watch with Strava, it turns out my wrong turn took me to a different Strava segment and I somehow got the course record for that, despite tiptoeing around sheets of ice and frozen mud. Strava link.

The trail got progressively worse in Beaver Brook and I stopped to don Yak Trax. I frequently walked, but even when I could run it wasn’t very fast. My heart rate remained low but I feel like dealing with difficult terrain is excellent training.

I returned home ravenous for eggs. One recurring source of annoyance for me is the discrepancy between the “calories burned” reported on Strava versus Movescount, which is the website for my Suunto watch. According to Strava, I burned 1,447 calories; Movescount says I burned 831. That’s a difference of two glasses of wine! Of course, I choose to believe Strava.

Winsome winter meadow

Winsome winter meadow

 

A better section of trail

A better section of trail

 

Obligatory Selfie

Obligatory Selfie

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